For as long as I can remember I have always heard the term “Living on Faith” and “Having the faith of a mustard seed” The most vivid memory of that phrase is of some girls I went to school with’s mother. Their father had passed away suddenly leaving her widowed with 2 teenage girls and a life left to live. She wore a necklace with a mustard seed in it and she said it was a daily reminder that as long as she has at least that much faith each day she will make it.
At the time I can’t say that I really understood what she meant. But I’m starting to.
Now don’t get me wrong. This woman’s case was and still is to this day an extreme one. And I have not had to figure out how to make it through life raising my children on my own due to the passing of their father. However, what I have had to do is wonder on a near constant basis how or where we are going to have the finances to get all the bills paid, food on the table, and fuel in our vehicle so that Dusty can get to the job that is providing for our family.
Every two weeks, when payday rolls around I start to sweat. I get nervous and cranky. My temper gets short and I tend to take my frustration out on those closest to me, usually that person being my loving husband who takes it all in stride. And then, on those Friday mornings, when I log in to our bank account I find that not only is there enough money there but there is extra. And I find myself again apologizing to God for doubting and having so little faith in His ability to take care of me and my family.
Each time I am reminded of Matthew 6:25-34.
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Do not be anxious about your life. Man, how many time do I catch myself worrying about how we are going to buy groceries or if the food that I do already have is going to stretch to make another meal. And yet, even in the harshest winter or driest summer the animals are still taken care of.
Do I really think that myself and my family isn’t as important as the animals? Are we less important or less loved than the flowers?
Week after week I find myself realizing a little bit more what it means to live on faith. Some days I think I’m running on less than a mustard seed, but others, well, those are the days I know that with the power of God I can move the mountains. I just hope that I can find myself with more days moving mountains and less with worrying about tomorrow.
Have you ever found yourself in a situation wondering how and if things are going to work out only to see in the end that not only has it worked out but things are better than you could have imagined? Take time to thank God for those occasions.