In the last few weeks a lot has happened in my little corner of the world.
First of all, my phone service was disconnected due to the fact that we couldn’t pay the bill. Thats what happens when you have one person in the family working semi-part time and taking Master degree classes full time and another person that doesn’t bring in any income because me working full time and him working part time still wouldn’t cover the cost of child care.
Secondly, we ended up with a major virus on the computer. (Its fixed now.) With that I lost my last form of communication with everyone. And I mean everyone. I couldn’t even get a hold of Dusty to find out when he would be getting off work.
In the 1.5 weeks that I had no communication I was forced to step outside of my comfort zone and really start seeing the new world I was living in. I spent more time outside with the kids where the other mom’s in my neighborhood were at with their kids as well. I started to have real conversations with some of my neighbors. I also made a new friend. Well, actually Dusty became friends with her husband first and then we just kinda went from there.
Along with that I spent a lot more time with my kids. I learned that Collin can do all the motions and sing the song “Itsy Bitsy Spider.” I didn’t know he could do that. I also had a lot more full length conversation with him. It is amazing how well he can communicate as just 2 years old. He speaks in full paragraphs most of the time. I am just in awe at how smart he really is.
So, while I like knowing when my husband will be home for dinner and having the ability to just text a friend instead of having to walk to her house I have come to the conclusion that I really need to unplug more often. I need to take the time to step out of myself and my own personal pitty party to see what I have around me. My kids are growing up way to fast and I realized that I am missing a big part of it. Sure, I am here when they need me. I am basically with my beautiful children 24/7 but I am missing the little things. Like the fact that Collin likes to sing and that RaeLynn is ready to be sitting up more on her own. I need to focus on the little stuff.
Now, on another note: My exercise and diet are completely off track. I was doing so well for a while but then Halloween and stress hit. I know, I know. Sounds like a lot of excuses but that’s not the point. The point is I’m not giving up. Sure I set myself back a bit but that doesn’t mean I can’t start over.
I did actually get all the way through the 30 Day Shred but when you are taking in more calories than you are burning it really doesn’t matter. So I’m going to try something different. I don’t really know what yet but I will figure it out before tomorrow morning and start then.
Wish me luck!